Mad-Mattie

FORGIVE ME FATHER Forgive me father, for I have sinned I want to go before the world will end a troubled soul am I just waiting to die asking your forgiveness hoping you will understand while my life is in your hand I put a mask on everyday to hide the things I put away I cant recognize myself when I look in the mirror and what I see is no resemblance of me I ask myself (Oh God,) what have I done I've lost my soul I've come undone I don't know myself anymore I am afraid what's behind the locked door there are voices inside my head making me wish I was dead 2004

Kiss my fever delirium dreams sway through my mind scratching my burnt skin all the time fever overwhelms my soul kiss my fever so I can let you go my skin is hot to the touch I shouldn't have loved you so much seeing what isn't there, wondering you if you really cared wounded with a heartache there isn't much more I can take caring for you was something I didn't think I could do sweating out the love you gave makes me wish I was in a grave different beats seem to fade but now my skin will turn gray

Belly of my Beast I touched it It was cold in the drawer I felt so old how did it come to this would anyone surly miss the tears stream down my face God I hate this place I touched it black as night in the drawer scared with all my might how did it come to this would anyone surly miss the tears stream down my face God I hate this place I touched it wondering if it is empty in the drawer there is ammo plenty how did it come to this would anyone surly miss the tears stream down my face God I hate this fucking place I touched it because I am worthless in the drawer everyone would be better off than this how did it co